( From Chpt. XIII of “The Inner Look” in Silo’s Message)
This writing is a kind of investigation into The Principles. I will start in the middle, and I probably may end in the middle, but I hope to open some ideas in the process.
You will make you conflicts disappear when you understand them in their ultimate root, not when you want to resolve them. Or your conflicts will be made to disappear when you understand their deepest roots, not when you want to make them go away.
So there is a sort of trick to our minds. A trick that deals with a way of approaching our internal conflicts, where we need an attitude of investigation. As if we were looking past the problem to see what’s behind it, and what’s behind that. Certainly we are not looking outside ourselves for someone to blame because that would be going in the wrong direction.
Yet the mystery remains as to how does this work. It seems counter- intuitive to say the solution is in the understanding of roots. We are not talking about cause and effect here, rather we seem to find hints of how to understand this idea of understanding in another Principle.
If you pursue an end, you enchain yourself. If everything you do is realized as though it were an end in itself, you liberate yourself. So when a solution is your end, your conflicts remain unchanged, and you remain enchained to them.
Understanding is also not an end we pursue, rather we are liberated by the investigation of what’s behind our conflict and not the conflict in itself. If we think of causes, it pushes us out, away from ourselves, seeking blame and fault. If we approach this task with judgment of others or of ourselves, we are also stuck in cause and effect.
We are talking about the characteristics of an inner look. A look which is inquisitive in nature, whose intention is to know. To know without imposition or interpretation. To move through our inner world with a different point of view. One that looks at our errors, mistakes, disasters, and conflicts as if they were natural disasters, trying to see how, like a hurricane or a flood, there was no one at fault. The circumstances that surrounded this situation contributed to its inevitability. Then our guilt disappears with this point of view, and we are able to continue our search for roots. We reconcile with ourselves as we understand how our beliefs about ourselves contributed to this situation as much as the environment contributed. Given who we thought we were at the time, and in the nature of our surroundings, the occurrence of a conflict created itself.
Now with this different point of view given by the intention of our inner look, we can integrate our past mistakes, and reconcile with ourselves.
The techniques we use to do this integration are called guided experiences. They allow us to work on ourselves outside the rational mind. Outside of the prison of cause and effect, like our dreams scatter the world of things and time all around, we work in a kind of half sleep that opens the mind up to change.
We all have the experience of talking endlessly about our problems, and nothing about them changes. In order for change to happen we need to work in the flexible world of dreams, where the jumble of time and space opens access to real integration of past conflicts. A world in which facts are not stuck in cement, like happens in our everyday mind.
Our inner look bridges these different qualities of our consciousness and allows us to reconstruct our past so that it no longer determines our future. Where we are released from dragging this weight and free to be in the present without the noise of a troubled heart, or a restless mind, or a tense body.
Part II – Producing the Contrary
I, we get into the habit of blaming the past for our suffering.
We talk about our climates as an emotional fog that surround us, that we live inside it, and that comes from our past, like a weight we drag behind us.
Today we were talking about how the future can also create suffering through our imagination. How our fears effect us and perturb our consciousness. It seems our fears push us away, but in order to get past them, we need to go towards them. We need to investigate our fears, to look for whats behind them, as the Principle declares; your conflicts will disappear when you understand them in their ultimate root, not when you want to resolve them.
It seems odd to think of roots being in the future. Our association is roots grow down into the earth, and the past is below us as we climb toward our future. Yet we are talking about roots inside us, and they grow in every direction toward the inside of us. Our task is to follow them back in order to open up the origins of these conflicts.
It is unusual for us to think in these terms, because how can it be that what has not happened yet could have an effect on what’s happening now. We are outside of cause and effect, and outside of our habitual thinking patterns. Many of us have experienced how when something turns out different from our expectations, we get upset, or mad, or hurt, or disappointed.
It seems that what we anticipate the future will bring, set us up for a fall. This is not what I thought it would be. This is not how I thought things would turn out. This is a way in which our expectation creates conflict in the present of the future. We contaminate our own future and create suffering that waits for us in the future. If it doesn’t turn out like I want it to, I suffer.
If you pursue an end, you enchain yourself. If everything that you do is realized as though it were an end in itself, you liberate yourself. Being enchained is very much like mental suffering.
We know the consciousness always leans toward the future. Or one could even say it throws itself constantly forward. We make our plans and we work toward our goals. But if we do it in a way that blinds us to each step along the way, we enchain ourselves.
This can be seen as the future blinding the present. The end justifies the means. Since when we add desire into the equation, what we want can create a desperation in the present, and annul what we do.
When you force something towards an end you produce the contrary. To put it more poetically, true action in the false mind produces the reversal of the action, and in the false heart humiliation. If the action is false and the head true, this will leave a void in front of you. So how is it that our acts, our minds or our hearts become false?
It seems that when we move in the world with our energy acting centripetally, then we are not able to see past our own desires. We are enclosed. As Silo says in “The Internal Landscape”:
“From your thoughts to your muscles, everything has been taught to contract, not to let go. Hence even when you act with generosity, calculation motivates your apparent disinterestedness. Everything enters and nothing leaves… I tell you that your selfishness is not a sin but rather the fundamental error in your calculation, for you have naively believed that to receive is better than to give… Let me end by saying: If you want to overcome your profound contradictions, you must produce valid actions. If these actions are valid, it is because they help those around you.”